Asides the fact that your grieving journey truly touched me as I read your posts, I also would be saying a prayer for you from today, because you're also an intercessor yourself and deserve to also be held in prayer as you hold others. I've not come across anywhere you spoke of how you lost Tobi. Is that intentional? I hope you don't mind I asked. I was just curious to see any place that described how that event must have happened. If it's not something you hope to share, that's perfectly okay too. My love and prayers are with you, Esther.